Thursday, December 29

Inah's New Blog

Check out Inah's blog.
Just a bit proud of it. :-)
I had to download Picasa to get the pictures there but it was ok.
I was able to use the Picasa too.
She wanted to voice ot her thoughts too without literally using her voice.
Being a bit shy, she said she wanted to write letters in a blog.

So, welcome to the group of blogger, Inah!
Hope you like the look of the blog!

Tuesday, December 27

what a day

I'm still sick. I wonder when I'm gonna get well.
Blame it on the major stress just before Christmas. Oh well, All the projects, super-tahi, papers to type, major decorate instead of studying. hehehe.
Now it has taken its toll.
Oh well, I need this well-deserved rest.
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Sunday, December 25

Christmas sickness!

It's Christmas and I'm sick.
Actually, I've not been feeling well since the 22. 23, I wouldn't let my headache and bodyache get me. I was determined to go shopping. 23 in the evening, me down. 24, very sick. 25, lousy morning but I'm quite ok now. A little food, lots of drinks, tons of love and I'm ok. My fever's down.
My little caregiver, Pat, has done a good job giving me some tender loving massage. Oooohhh! Feels good. A little massage from Jade is also good.
Gifts! Gifts Gifts!
Lots 'a gifts! New pants, lots of accessories, books!
"Doesn't it feel like Christmas, it feels lovely. 2X
Feels so lovely, so lovely!"
Aki gave more copic and a box of Tatari-asu (Suit balls) food. Yup, strait from Japan. The food for the cuddly, spider-like suit balls. Don't I feel special.
Hope to get better! I have a lot of work to do. At least I got the tela na for our fashion show. Yup, 50 yards and I carried it from Divisoria to the car. Wee!
I'm pumping iron! Lots of testosterone pumping! I'm a regular cargador! Raar!
I made Inah a blog. For an added extra Christmas gift, I wanted it to be special but I lost her password. Now, I can't update a new look I found for her. Man!
Oh Well!
Merry Christmas to all!

Tuesday, December 20

The Merryment!

Oh! Let the merryment begin!
Tests are officially over! Course cards tomorrow!
Yesterday, Mom salvaged what was left of the X-mas tree.
I used the branches and wired them to the stairs.
it looks nice. Just needs a bit of lights.
I'm happy. I'm doing the best I can for our first Christmas in this house.
Yup, Maita Rue will Rev up the Vienna House.
It'll be cheery for the holidays or am I not the middle child of Vienna?
Today, I'm going to go to Quiapo. Even if it's super squeezy, I'll brave it!
Oh, let the merryment begin!
As for the toubles in the progressing: "On-line blog war,"
Let it halt. Let it cease!
It's Christmas! Let's forgive.
Live and let live!
Let me sing a carol for all of you:
"Oh God, bless us everyone!
The good and the bad,
The happy the sad!
Oh God, bless us everyone!"
Put up that happy face, the joyful will be triumphant!
"Oh come, all ye faithful,
Joyful and triumphant!
Oh come ye, oh come ye
to Bethlehem!"
Hugs and Kisses!

Thursday, December 15

Mr. "Nicest"

Dear VJ,
Let me express my opinions, feelings and thoughts. I know, I know you might think its another ranting about the show. Not really. More on you as a person.
Wasn't it you who said na you can fit all the clothes to one hour? I've heard you said that last term and the term before that. How come naging 2 hours this show?
Please, why are you defensive if a lot of people didn't like this show?
Didn't the super text message kanina sa class say something? Somebody is mocking the whole class for the grad show. Doesn't that say something?
No more plastican. I'm telling you this because you need to know this. Though you don't consider me a friend, I'm still going to tell you your little faults. (Friends are supposed to tell each other thier mistakes, right?)
Don't take it hard. Personal opinion: I didn't like the show. (no offense, zig.) I thought you can prove us wrong if we lay back a bit. Guess, that wasn't the case. Perhaps there were a lot of factors involved as well. I did the best I can: do the bugdeting and made the letters. It was all up to the ones who commited.
Let us examine what was your commitment. This is not singling you out from everybody else. Its just, you have the most comment and you cannot take that the show was not as bonga as you wanted it.
You were supposed to be choreographer. How come pasaway models mo?
I don't mean to drag the past but you did once commited to help with the food in re- and you left me and vic to do the work on that. All we needed was 10 minutes of your time but you wanted to wait for your model who came at 6pm. There was plenty of time to help.
Now, please take this all calmly. The show was not a disaster, it just didn't go as we hoped. Get me?
Just listen to eveybody's comments and thoughts. And I mean everybody. Not just friends. Get diversed opinions. Its only an opinion. What's to loose?

Now I've said my peace.
Time to graduate and leave it all behind.
As you always say: That's Life!
Freedom of Speech.
PS: Nothing personal but then again, what in life isn't being taken personal? Person is the root word of personal. We all have our own free minds and free will.

Tuesday, December 13

Pitter Patter

The drops fall constantly
but the day grows gloomier as the drops fall slowly.
A fist full of days...
then will it be over?
Will this darkness, gloom, anger
bitterness, apathy, regret close as the year does?
It was said in John: “Let he who is without sin be the first one to cast the stone.”
Did a blameless cast the fist stone?
Nay, opposite.
Peace, my friends. I'm no judge.
I merely relay what I have witnessed.
"Do not begrudge a sou(like peso in old french)
Its not what we Christians must do."
--Les Miserables
The pitter patter does not cease.
It falls constantly outside the window.
The drops are random
But there is a pattern.
Can you see it?
Mayhaps you need only hear it.
The sound of raindrops...
a free form poem of some sort
dedicated to the bitterness around me.

Saturday, December 10

What a Blunderful Life...

Updates on life:
Tasks in Worlite are over! No more travelogues and papers. I did my presentation smoothly and Ms. Amador sisn't even ask a question. The key to a good paper is to have a position. You have to say something and stick to saying it the whole time.
My paper is about Alexandre Dumas. My position is that he was so influential that he influenced todays movie makers. from true to his books 3 Musketeers, Man in the Iron Mask and Count of Monte Chirsto to influenced works like La Femme Musketeer and the 5th Musketeer. He even influenced our very own Jose Rizal.
The scale model for the store for Sir Jay went better than I expected. The panel loved my floor plan. They think it flows perfectly. I just used everthing I learned and picked-up on my journmey of learning. Here's my secret: Sir Elvert made us design a lay-out of a museum or art gallery. I put into mind everything he said. 1)Keep things simple. 2)Take off any distractions. 3)Less is more.
Then, I remeber what the sales lady in Robinsons said. She said the customers always leave when they take too long in getting stocks from the stockroom so I made module racks.
Also there's what Sir Aman taught us. I applied his lectures on semiotics to my logo. A store for maternity apparel and accessories can't look like a teen trend store. I looked at logos of maternity stores and saw that most of them had curcular motiffs. So I made mine an egg with a fetal curve that also quite looks like a yin yang. There's many interpretations to it.
The Grad Show is over. I do say we went over budget. Why didn't we do it like I feel or re-? It could have been cheaper. Dont' blame me for the budget blunders. I'm not the implementer. My clothes were finished in the nick of time and I slept the morning awya today. 4 days without sllep can highen you blood sugar so be careful! check your blood pressure! Are you getting dizzy? Your heart might just stop!
AS for me, It kept on ticking and ticking fast. The show didn't get as we planned it. I could see the audience texting, looking else where and getting plain bored. Even my sister kept texting me that she and mom and the people around her were bored. There were cuts that we couldn't explain. Then Inaah's clothes came out and they announced Hazel's name. VJ got angry at Hazel and Inah but it was not their fault. They were busy suiting up models that they din't even know what was happening. Here comes the big M yapping his trap about these two. It was not their fault and it bites me he does this to them.
I was so touched Ja gave me a bouquet. My parents never gave me flower for all four shows. Awww... Tear! Hugs! Mwah!
Marketing time! I have to do this paper now and presentations with it too. Not to mention Photogra.

Thursday, December 1

Begin? Let it end, please!!!

Begin? The show? Its hectic crazy! I'm not yet even done with my clothes!!! 4 desgins and they need stitching!!! Man!
Kakaloka today, VJ is in his spree of wanting to touch women's boobs. Is he really gay or just pretending to be gay to hold women? God be the judge. As for me, I ain't keeping my guard down. If he ever touches me, he'll meet a woman man-er than him. It's summo time! Diki and Jady haven't beaten me in wrestling yet. Pat hasn't eaither! There are some uses to being big. hehe!
December's here! Man! Crazily, I want it over and done with. I know it'll get more hectic during the show proper. Let's see, let's see. I have a few predictions to make...

Wednesday, November 23

More Blog Things

Here are more blog thing I took. hehe. kakaaliw!

Your Birthdate: February 20

You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride.
Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you're happy, this is a good thing.
When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it's very hard to get you out of it.
It's sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious.

Your strength: Your warm heart

Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions

Your power color: Black

Your power symbol: Musical note

Your power month: February

You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...
But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.
You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.
You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!

really? hm...

You Are External - Believer - Empowered

You feel your life is controlled externally.
You tend to attribute most things to luck or karma.
You don't own your successes or your failures.
You tend to take life as it comes, but you're also apt to feel helpless.

You are a true believer in luck, fate, and karma.
You believe that life is a game of chance - not a game of skill.
You either consider yourself very unlucky or very lucky.
No matter what, you don't feel like you can change the hand you were dealt.

You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order.
You realize that working the system does get you further.
You know who to defer to and who to control.
When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.

Your Personality Profile

You are dependable, popular, and observant.
Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness.
In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do.

You are unique, creative, and expressive.
You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while.
And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!

Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom

What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

My eyes are brown!

Your Power Color Is Indigo

At Your Highest:

You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you.

At Your Lowest:

You require a lot of attention and praise.

In Love:

You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are.

How You're Attractive:

You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic.

Your Eternal Question:

"Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You give completely and unconditionally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You're secretly hoping your partner will change for you.

You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Kind Fortune Teller.

Where You Lived: South Africa.

How You Died: Typhoid fever.

of all the things to kill me!!!

You Are Not Scary

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?

You Should Learn Chinese

Surprised? You shouldn't be - Chinese is perfect for an ambitious person like you.
You're a natural entrepreneur, and a billion people are waiting to do business with you!

its a sign!!!


Nutty and gooey - you always satisfy.


Tuesday, November 15

Can you SEE it? Not in PGH

Kaye and I went to PGH to get her eyes checked. At the reception area, we inquired. It's 400.00 per check up but there is a charity clinic at the Opta department. After getting lost for one hour, we finally get tot he Opta. Then, the guard said there is a procedure for charity patients. We must first get a blue card and all that jazz procedues. Then, he says its not possible to do anything this week for the power in the building is out and they will not do anything until next week. So we inquired to get the paying type. "Ay, soorii ma'am. La kaming private Opta dito."
Poop! You won't find an opta in PGH!
Sayang Pamasahe! Sayang sa effort. The receptionist could have said there was no Opta na private and the charity Opta isn't there until next week.
Kasi govenment run eh!
Poor Kaye.
I hope OK laser surgery niya tonught.

Sunday, November 13

Blogthing... hehe

Ja had this thing I clicked in her site. It shows advertising works. hehehe.
Here's what I got:

You are a Believer

You believe in God and your chosen religion.
Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu..
Your convictions are strong and unwavering.
You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.

Pepperoni Pizza

Robust and dominant.
When you go for something, you go full force.
You tend to take control of situations easily.
And in return, you get a ton of respect.

Your Hair Should Be Pink

Hyper, insane, and a boatload of fun.
You're a traveling party that everyone loves to follow.

You Belong in Rome

You're a big city girl with a small town heart
Which is why you're attracted to the romance of Rome
Strolling down picture perfect streets, cappuccino in hand
And gorgeous Italian men - could life get any better?

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

Your Heart Is Purple

For you, love is about establishing and developing a deep connection.
If it's true love, it brings you more wisdom and inner strength.

Your flirting style: Sincere

Your lucky first date: An afternoon at a tea house

Your dream lover: Is both thoughtful and expressive

What you bring to relationships: Understanding

Piña Linen

I went scouting for fabrics and went to the distributor of a material 100% tatak Ponoy. Unfortunately nobody is buying. It is called Piña Linen. It is actually a lovely material for blouses and sun dresses. Barong for daily wear could utilize this. Its light and soft but has a bit of cripiness in it. Its not indigenous but it is Filipino. 50% Natural as dictated by law.
Yes, there is actually a law. RA 9294 states na government offices kailangan they use materials na 100% made in the Philippines. 50% Natural.
Why is it we don't support our own? Perhaps it is because we lack promotion. So now I'm promoting Piña Linen. It is Pina and polyester. Very good material!

Jade's Dream Comes True

Jade always wanted to be a model. Here's her chance. I've been making her my model for Photogra class. She has a nice side sometimes. It during these pictorials sessions that she doesn't have a fit. Wow. Cameras do have an effect!
Slow it down, Jade.
You're cute but not that cute! Ha!

Sunday, November 6

Two worlds in a vacation

you know me... I'm a person living in two worlds.
Not autistic I assure you. There is just a million possibilities tha tI might be here where I am typing but am. Weird?
When I went Japan last yerar, my sister introduced me to the world of Diana Wynne Jones. I was in Japan but also in the world of wizard, witches and magic! Yes, books takes me elsewhere. I have to read. And read I did. What would you do in a train for 1 hour going to your destination and another hour back? Read!
I'm supposed to have a break but no! I'm drawing, patterning, draping and typing. Then, IU read from 9pm to 1am. Once I read til 2:30am! Hehehe. Thick paper back book with controvercial magical issues isn't letitng me sleep. Hehehe.
I was in powebooks when there was a sale. A lot of pocket bookswere just 80 pesos each. cool! I bought three and now finishing my second. Original price was 335.00. It says so at the back but the sale made it only 80.00! Too bad part II and III are not available. I went online to find them. They are available in Amazon. If you have a Librathing, you may see me. I use the name Maita. Check it out and catalogue your books!
Now, for my overview of the world Aqusilva and te book Heresy, check out my book review blog:
I have a map of Aquasilva to let you all understand the geography. It pretty hard to understand if you didn't see the map. Just click the link here:
So, I'm at Aquasilva during my late nights while back in Earth the rest of the time. Oh well...
Living two worlds isn't that easy. My aunt once told me my brain had too much activity. She had to take out a lot of energy but it still refused to rest. My uncle joined in taking off the energy but it still won't work. I just hope it comes handy during a test. Though it works in a different way.

Sunday, October 30

The Mediator

There are people we take for granted in class.
They are ridiculed and taunted a lot.
They do things to bring people to gether. Perhaps their methods may confuse us but it is all for the right reasons. These people are called mediators.
We have our own mediator in class. He made the retreat possible.
To thank that friends, I write this blog entry.
Vic, keep doing what you do! You always bridge lives, remember that!
If people tell you that you are chismoso, you relay information with the intention to make people understand not confuse them.
You make sure everyone in the group is safe and well.
In a way, you looked after us all.
There are harsh people in this world but thank God there are people I can count on like you!

SM Surplus Deception

Times are hard but does that mean you have to decieve to boost sales? This is what happened yesterday in SM Bicutan Surplus. We were shopping for pants. There was a big sale on pants with prices P249.75 each. It says so in the rack that the price was down. Then in the counter, the price was P399.75. The sales lady reasoned that a customer might have placed it there by accident. But that was quite impossible for the rack was organized and all pants in that rack were the same! The sales ladies didn't want to get the sign down. We called the supervisor but she only smiled and said sorry. The sign was taken down but the price was not. When we were leaving, they put back the sign. Talk about deception!
This is a warning to everyone. Careful! Times are hard and people are harder! When there is a descreapancy on prices, complain so they would know they can't fool you.
This happened in SM Bicutan in Surplus.

Monday, October 10

Heroes Aging on Stone?
Are the heroes vanishing? On their pedestal of stone, are they crumbling?
In our hearts, are they disappearing?
We had a school project to go to Caloocan last Saturday. I got some pictures form my digicam. Are these sites still worth seeing?
Now I examne in me if these heroes really died for something. I remember I wrote in my first novel(which got deleted) something one of the Characters said:
"Heroes dying, they get praising.
In the end, they died for nothing."
Did they?
What they did? The selfless act, the fighting, the dying... Are we proud to be called as Filipinos? Rizal and Binofacio, would they be proud of us?
We who patronize other countries? We who oppress the least of our brothers and sisters?
We who has forgotten our heritage?
And the ones in power? We who place them where they are, can we be proud of leaders who bring shame to our country?
The heroes have aged in our minds. We never even bothered to give birth to new ones. The heroes have aged in our hearts. They fade in the stone pedestal, they fade in our lives.

Sunday, October 9

Aurum Est Potestas

Meet Artemis Fowl, criminal Mastermind since age twelve. What do you do when you have the highest IQ recorded in all Europe. This Irlandskii boy has many enemies on his tail. Also, loyal friends.
But who is Artemis Fowl?
Gold is power. That's the family motto he abides by. For generations now, the Fowls have been involved in illegal dealings though none proven. Our young Artemis Fowl II is not about to break family taditions. Not even after his father, Artemis Fowl Senior, vows a straight life for him and his family.
Not Artemis. The more dangerous the escapade, the more he feels up to the challenge.
He has 12 patented chess moves. He forged and auction a Van Gogh, Diary of Leonardo Da Vinci and others. What else can a genius do? Oh yeah! Write a psychology book.
He calls himself Artemis the hunter, after the Greek goddess of hunting. once in a while, as he claims, a mortal is fit enough to bear the name of Artemis and that, my dear friends, is our young Master Fowl. He hunsts for thrill and possible victims.
Gold is power and power is what he looks for. Not to mention every time he blackmails, he gets gold in ransom. That's our young Artemis Fowl.
Read more about him on my book reviews:

Monday, September 26

Analysis of Two Plays

Two plays, a tragedy for Friday and a comedy for Sunday.
What are these play? For Friday, R'Meo luvs Dew-Lhiet. Its a Jologs adaptation of Romeo and Juliet. The other for Sunday is The Taming of the Shrew.
The later play was in CCP. They tried to Tagalize and adapt the story to the indifent area of the Philippines. I can quite say it is very adaptable and we all can relate from time to time. It poses universal problems of unacceptance and discrimination.
The Taming of the Shrew is played at Onstage Greenbelt. It is performed as if Shakespeare himslef directed it. English, Shakespearean English and the whole costumes and stuff. It is a wishful thinking of man about the quality of woman they want to marry.
From the venue when the plays are set, we get an idea of the audience and the kind of play it is. Nothing against its quality, both has exhibited the right acting and the flawless memoried speeches. I guess I can say, I just wasn't the audience of the first play. I didn't appreaciate it so much. The only reason I paid for the ticket and watched because it was a requirement. You see my preference in more on the classics and traditional matters. It was not based on theme though. I do feel Taming of the Shrew is Chauvinistic. Something I'm against. It is all on the taste. Threater does excite me. Taming of the Shrew, Evita and all those Trumpet musicals. It's not that my taste is foreign. It just achieved its international standards.

Saturday, September 24

Bringing it to the Present

Today's new ideas are yesterdays original ideas being modernized. Yes. They are all bieng reinvented today. We weave elements of the past and present into one up-to-date story.
Why do we bring these ideas to the present? Is it to bastardize it? Maybe just because we really don't have new ideas anymore?
Perhaps it really is just the fad.
Things, places, ideas and even people. If they don't change, they disappear. stagnation, as people say, is detrimental. We have to change. But that change has to be for the better.
Bringing past to present isn't just some wicked idea to mould without cause. Tey has to be a definite cause and certain influences why it is so. A whim of change is just a mere fab to fade soon in oblivion. Concrete ideas, no matter borrowed, can withstand the test of time. True, it may be alterable but it only shows its flexibility.

Saturday, September 17

What is Filipino Fashion?

What makes a fashion Filipino? What sets it apart?

Ja and I browsed through the library and found that there was no definite meaning. Most of the books we found were about Baro’t Saya, Terno and Barong. These are already colonial influences. What is the true meaning of Filipino Fashion?

It dawned to me that Filipino Fashion is something you have to discover for yourself. It depends on each person on what her meaning is. As a Fashion Designer, you have to search inside what is Filipino in you that makes your clothes Filipino too.

Filipino Fashion is the history and identity of a true Filipino interpreted in clothes and accessories. Elements of this fashion dates back from pre-colonial times until the contemporary times.


Pre-colonial elements differs slightly from tribe to tribe. This is because each tribe has their own interpretations for each symbol and color.

  • Weave: Ikat, Tinalak, Yakan cloth, etc.
  • Cuts: bells sleeves, g-strings, tunic shirts, wraps etc.
  • tapis, malongs, sarongs
  • Beads, heavy in beading and accessories
  • Patterns: Scrolling(plants), Geometric, Anthromorphic(human shapes)
  • Animistic symbols
  • Letters and figures: Sanskrit from Muslim tribes, Alibata, Devanageri, Austronesian.
  • Color combinations
  • Stones, gold, brass, copper

Having colonized us for more than three hundred years, they left strong influences imbedded.

  • Weave: Jusi, Piña, etc.
  • Cuts: Terno, Baro’t Saya, Balntawak, Barong, etc.
  • Religious icons
  • Embroidery
  • Lace, panueallas

Other Influences
Chinese. Because of trade, we acquired elements from Chinese traders bringing us goods and influences.
Colors and

  • their meanings: Blue, red and yellow
  • Shoes and slippers
  • Fans and intricate bags
  • Patterns, hand paintings etc.

Western. Brought by American, this is the latest influence that dominates the fashion.

Monday, September 12

Burry Dreams Broken

Farewell Dreams, we had quite a time
Love inbetween, It has passed.
'Tis was not our faults
Our destination's bound to fail
Forces come to shatter us
And Life has turned her blind eye
Yonder lies your fragment.
Shall I burry in the hopes it may sprout?
Nay, my heart's too heavy.
Perhaps soon when I sooth
You shall call me,
"Lady Dreamer, come and burry me
That I may start a new
in a sprout of more dreams bring
A new dawn for my lady of the shade."

The Ill-Made Mute, Rag among Rags

An Enchanting Novel By Cecilia Dart-Thornton.
Mistifying struggle of a mute and her endurance in a world of danger and discrimination.
Imerhein, the deformed mute, is in a constant struggle with wights and people who look at her differently. It shows a gruesome reality that people do judge by appearance. It takes humble people to overcome her face and befriends her.
Is there a humble person around? In this day and age? Will Imerheins of our time survive?
She will long perish and vanity will rule leaving her in a dark world that is a nightmare.
Reality? yes. We trap her to books yet we do not see what is around.
She is real and around.
There are many personifications and symbolisms to her.
Imerhein in society is the deformed person, ugly. Judged by appearance. She is mute because she is not listned to. She has no "voice."
Im am always looked as a rag picker. Perhaps every Imerhein I've already met. And I can't help them all. It's hard to please everyone.
In time, I begin to see myself like her.
One of the voiceless.
And the very rags I try to help are the filthy ones that smother me slow and painfully.

Thursday, September 8

It's Harder with Friends

It's harder with friends because you know how they would take it.
It's harder when you have to tell them an ugly truth.
And it hurts because they are hurt.

Tuesday, September 6

Tuesday with WORLITE

Tuesday and it's first day for WORldLITErature. I don't know if I remember having minors. I'm not comfy in sitting on these brown armchairs. Lots to do. Lots of literature to cover but I'm not liking her selections. There must be more interesting literatures that those.
Oh well.
Ang nakakloka part is PHILIEN. After waiting so long, wala palang teacher. Kakaloka!

Saturday, September 3


The problem with school, palpak.
That's one term to describe it.
Everything is run by useless papers. Something is wrong with the system. The country is chaotic because it starts with the school.
The students have had it! They choose to be passive and indifferent because they have had it. They would be sanctioned if they did something so they choose to swallow the everyday pangs and live until they graduate. Sadly, including me.
It all starts with the school. The students are formed apathetic and as citizens, they become apathetic. This is the plight of the college.
We have a sick reputation. It is soooo everwhere. Now I know why. I'm hating my daily existence in this school. Maybe the other students feel better. But they are not the ones given a classroom that have lockers falling apart. They are not the ones having fiting forms that are fitting-deformed! They are not the ones lacking sewing machines and it barely works!
Yes, that is the plight of the fashion students. We are few and discriminated by the school system. We pay an everage of forty-eight thousand per trimester but we don't get what that's worth. Poor us.
This is our plight. With this, I strive harder that one day I can make a school of my own that will shape citizens different from this school.
It might get yearly repainted. It might look pretty outside but usually, bulok and laman.

Wednesday, August 24


There are choices to make in life. Most choices are hard to make. It is often the simplest of things that are hardest. Then what is complicated? What is complicated is a simple matter made big because of many choices. There might be a lot involved or a lot at stake.
Hard choices have to be made. Currently, I have to make them. My life is turning because I am growing up already. I must choose which path to take so when the choices come, I am armed and prepared.
Friends are hard to choose from. You have to choose them and in turn, they choose you. In relation to groupmates, you have to make the right choices and let them choose too. Not everyone I choose agreed and I did not choose all of my friends. I have chosen ones who want to make a difference for themselves. I have chosen ones who will not let my dreams and ideas go to waste. It was hard to make. Some would say it was obvious but the truth is, it was not.
The simple thing to say or reasoning would be that I chose them because they are the greatest and most responsible ones. As I said: the simplest choices are the hardest. I chose them but put at stake a lot: my dreams, ideas amd reputation.
Now that I have chosen them, it is up to them to choose me. If they do, they would share my mission and vision. For there are harder tasks in the coming months. Decmeber is our D-day. Through this journey, even more choices have to be made.
I hope we can do it together.

So sorry for the ones I have not chosen. I hope you are not angry with my choises. certain factors were considered in choosing and it was deliberated in a span of a term.

Sunday, August 21

A New Endeavor

I know I should rest after the show but now, I'm restless. I've jumped right up to the next show. Yup!
The grad show.
I know, I know.
I should worry about that next term. But the next term is so short. Sponsors will not have budget for us. Christmas season na yun. 'Tis hard.
So Now I'm sending out sponsorship letters already. In secret to some people but now I'm saying it. I have big plans for the Grad collection. Yup!
I want it to be big and grand. Many would disagree to my ideas. They are too big. I need at least 300,000.00 in pesos. How do I do that? I don't know. I am Maita. I find a way.
I want this show to leave a legacy behind. I want people to remember it by. Even to set a precedent.
Too big?
Maybe. Only because this project is short term. Mind you the term is short.
I have to work fast!
This maybe the start of my career. We're ending already. Yes I know I am taking a huge step. Dad thinks I can do events planning. Because of the RObinson's show, there are people who want to team up wiht me. I create the show at least twice a year and they do the technicals.
Sounds good.
I can launch my clothes are stuffs or make shows for other designers. Still too big now?
I think too big because I am big (my body that is!)
So? Big brains can only fit in big heads with big bodies!

Wednesday, August 3

Be The Man!

This is a very tiring week for me and my classmates! What makes matters worse, my partner's not breaking a sweat. Nooooooooo...
I became Cargador!
See my Muscle, heare me hustle! Pumping Iron!
Mind you, I'm an all-female girl in an all-female body. But no! This week I'm a testosterone pumping cargador! Even a little girl can carry more than he does.
Everyone's got a mix of hormones. For girls, more estrogen, for guys more testoterone.
I have nothing against homosexual until they mutilate thier bodies. There would come an imbalance. No male can ever be female. Breast might be implanted, hair maight be lasered, notes can be cut off. Heck! Gender transpant is possible but then, your blood has tell tale signs that it belongs to a man. DNA, darling! Plus, skeletal structure is another factor.
Female intuition? Puhleez! Its like water. The more you grasp, the more it falls out of your palms. So don't claim you have it! Nurture it if you do. Trust and use it well. Even men have female intuition. It means a connection of emotions that bond you to your loved ones spiritually. Its hightened to most females because we have motherly instincts and we are close to nature.
So I'm the man! But more of a girl than I'll ever be. Not just for Market Week but for other things too. I have to depend on me and try to use my resources.
As mom says, Its a test of character. The refiner's fire, so to say. The more I'm tested in fire, the stronger I become.

Friday, July 15

Where God is

Mr (blank) said that God must be living in Chile. This is because he said it looked so wonderful and beautiful in Chile. He can't find any other place so beautiful as Chile. There is thought one big BUT to his story of beauty. No matter how handsome and pretty people are, he said they were all theives and liars. He wouldn't trust any of them.
Fine by me. God still lives there. I think he's right in saying God lives in a place like that because the healthy does not need a doctor.
God lives closer to where He is needed the most. If the people are really not trustworthy, God will try harder at that place. He gives them a peaceful surrounding amidst the unruly heart so that everymorning it would serve as a reminder of God's love.

Thursday, July 14



So much to do
So many to think about
So little me
So few hands
Too jumbled inside me
Too jumbled outside me
Everything is jumbled

Wednesday, July 13

Can't See

Yesterday Diki woke me up because a text rang for me that woke everyone up. It was Kaye texting at 3 in the morning. I heard the ring but just stuffed the phone under the pillow. I looked to the direction of the window to see the time.
Oh my gosh! I think I'm blind! I can't see anything! Even if it's midnight, I have to see the moonlight or just plain natural lighitng outside but none! I'm blind!
Morning, two rays of sunlight passed through a crack on the newspapers and foil.
Newspaper and Foil?
Yup. It seems dad put newspaper and foil on the window to keep the sun out. It was under the curtain so I wasn't able to see it before I went to bed. Man! I thought I was blind!

Saturday, July 9

Guardian Angel Falling

A teacher of mine shared to us that his grandfather told him
"Its not good to be good."

I know. I've been trying to abide by the rules of being too good. I did good things to help others. It's not everyday I announce my good deed. I keep some to myself. It's the thought of helping. People will not often appreciate what I do. Nor will they appreciate who I am.

It hurts that I try my best to make people happy and I can't please the majority. Everynight I ask if there's a point to everything I do. Is there any good in being a guardian angel?
Is there a point to what I do?


I often relate myself to the good guys. I feel for them when they get hurt. Inside, I say I'm like Guardian Angel Setsuna, I have a silver sword with me. But then, I have no Carin.
Hhhhh... This is a tough life.

How come Diki's fine? That's because she loves the bad guys.
How come Jade get's what she wants? That's because she's spoiled and a totale B!-*-
How come others are fine as they are? Because they put themselves on top of the list.
While me--- at the bottom of the my priority list.
I hate this. I'm turning into an emotional eater. Also, hungrier and hungrier to be the best that I can be. I guess, it's the only way I can please a lot of people including myself. But then, it still isn't enough.

Nothing seems to be.
It's no good to be too good. It's detrimental.


Monday, July 4

I'm Me

This is who I am...
I am
"... if only because no matter what you do, no one will ever think the things about you that you want them to think. What you do has to done because of how you’ll feel about you.”
-Deep Wizardry
I am Maita and I am what I am. If being who you are is a choice then this is my choice. I love beilieving in things people call myths. I think there are some truth to the matter. I love ice cream and chocolate. I love reading. Books that intrigue me are fantasy books. Elis Peter's Cadfael is the only book not too fantasy but I love. Historic books and pre-historic subjects as good too. I love Dinosaurs. I like to learn about them. I like fashion but I'm not too keep up with the fad.
I don't like being put down. I hate people who are discriminative. I disagree with people who don't take a bath when they have a chance. I hate corruption and deciet.
When I grow up, I want to be set apart from the rest. I want to be recognized and make it good in the world.
I love to unwind by typing my stories. Soon, I hope to publish a few books. I just have this parallel universe of stories. This is where I base most of my drawings.
I hope to enter into numerous business not just fashion.
I do teacup divining and dream prophecy. I try to study aura reading and palmistry.
Like mysteries, the more you try to explain them, the more they become vague. So don't warp me into something explainable because I am what I am.

Saturday, July 2

Scrub-a-Dub-Dub. Two feet in a tub

As everyone knows, Pat has stinky feet. He doesn't like to clean it properly. I thought of a solution to cure this and

Found it! I was able to re-invent a new foot soak. No scrub needing, just soak up for ten long minutes. He can even just sit down and watch tv while the soak scrubs away the kagaw of his feet! I did it! I've done what no mortal man has dared to do: clean pat's feet.
this is progress for my beauty products business. I gotta get it patented!
Anyone wants to volunteer as another test subject?
I'll give you a jar for testing. hehehe.

Monday, June 27

Whale of Time

The other night I dreamed I lay down the bottom of the ocean.
Just a few seconds to relax on the sand and feel the water on my skin...
Suddenly, there was a killer whale swimming around me. It pulled my leg and tried to get me to surface. I realize the orca was trying to save me. I tried to say I was not drowning but just trying to relax.
The Whale told me to climb on it's back. So I did.
The Whale took me to a cave. Nobody dared to enter the cave because it was dark. THe darkness kept everyone away. But the whale took me inside.
In the cave, I saw paintings on the walls. Inside the cave, more paintings. It gave me ideas.
After my burst of ideas, the Wahle showed me a door. When I got out the door, I was back in the city, my home. The only thing was, I was years into the future. It seems that I have disappeared for so long.
Seeing Whales in dreams is a good sign. Especially Killer Whales. Killer Whale makes you doubt their motives but actually, they try to help. Whales in dreams are friends who are secretly trying to help you in the real life.
This whale in particular showed me opportunities in a dark cave. The darkness can symbolize our hesitations and doubts but the whale brought me beyond the darkness and into opportunities. According to Dream Dictionaries I read, Caves are springs of creativity. They hide some sort of artistic inspiration waiting to be discovered.
Things take time, as the whale shows. We all have to get back to the origin and start from there. Opportunity is shows and doubts anre broken. When we return to our own worlds, we are changed and in being changed, we must change the world as well.

Saturday, June 25


Lyrics by Altarboyz. Lead Vocals by Mark
I Look in to your eyes and see the pain you look inside
Aren't you tired of the lies you tell so you can hide?
What if my friends don't accept me? (I know...)
What if my parent's reject me? (I know...)
But you can't be truly "you" untill you can say...
I am
Catholic (that's me)
I beleive in the Holy Trinity(1,2,3)
Shout it out and make them hear your voice
Your posse might think it's dope
To confess your sins and like the Pope
But this is who you are, it's not a choice (Not a choice)
You say your sleeping in when your going out to mass
You cut school on Ash Wednessday so nobody would ask (Don't ask)
Your rosary's hid in your sock drawer (oh no...)
You sneak into church through the back (Oh no...)
Time to break out and break free and finally say:
I am a Catholic and Proud
Sing it strong, sing it proud
I won't deny what God meant me to be
Every night you knee and pray
Stand up and be counted today!
Out of the cloisters and in to the streets (in to the streets!)
We are your teachers and your doctors
And your Burgerking cashiers
We're your receptionist and interns
And your Amtrqack engineers
We are your lawyers and your tourguides
And your actors on TV
We are your parents and your brothers and your children
And me...
I am Catholic, yes I am!
Long live the Vatican!
God doesn't make mistakes and he made me!
Let out what you've trapped inside
Come on and show your Catholic pride!
That's how you were meant to be!
I am Catholic hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I'm not going to hold it back no more
No you won't, you won't deny me!
C-A-T-H-'L-I-C- Catholic with a capital C!
Tha't how it was meant... Ohhhh
Tha't howyou were meant...
Tah't how I was meant... to... be!

Tuesday, June 21

A Lot Like Gotham

Where is gotham? In the real world?
Look at our society. Doesn't it seem like the movie? Isn't the mood, senario and atmosphere of Batman Begins a lot like our society today?
"Our city doesn't belong to the criminals and the corrupt..."
It shouldn't but sad to say, it does. Our city might not be literally dark. The darkness is within us. The corruption is very rampant. Like the citizens, we bitterly accpet it.
What is missing is our Batman?
But do we need a superhero, a symbol like that to fight back? In order to break the system, we must be our own heroes. Face it! We don't have any Bruce Waynes!Do you think some rich tycoon is going to dress in a black rodent costume and go spending that much for costumes and weaponry. Worse, he'd be giving his life! No seree! They care too much for themselves. There's no more true heroes these days. It's a hard fact.

Monday, June 20

I can't hear you, Lord...

The other day I was listening to Altarboyz on the vcd player. Diki said she fixed it. Then it came to my favorite track, track 5 or the Miracle Song. It's about the gospel, only they rap it. Then of course, there'd be the part that Jesus is suppose to sing but then whne it came to his part, there was blank. Just music but no Jesus voice.
OH MY GOD!!! Have I beocme so sinful to have not hear Him anymore??? Repeat please. Nope, I can't here Jesus. This must be a sign!
Then Diki hits me. It seems that the right side speakers are broken. I only hear the left speakers and Jesus' voice and the other minor background effects were on the right side.
That made me breathe easier. But then it got me thinking. If that would happen, really happen, what would I do? This may be a sign from God too. A big jolt to tell me I need to be better, nicer or softer. Also, to spread the word to all and ask you all:
Can you hear Him?

Friday, June 17

Quite Different

As I learn another lesson today that is not textbook material, I realize, there is so many things I need to equipt myself that none of my profs can teach. People are different. Evolution is a hard teacher. People have evolved. In the 50's up to the 80's people's waist lines are normally 24 in this country. Today's waist lines for thin and "normal" people is 28ish.
People have evolded not only through time but through race. The Asian race has a different frame. The Caucasians too ahve a different frame. What we try to copy is this Caucasian Western shape of thin, long legs and short torso. Even in Asia, frames are differernt.
  • Here's a tip to all of you who read this. Filipinos are long torso and short legs. Fat Filipinos are usually top heavy, small hips and tiny legs. Tiny hips? How come we're over populated? We have the cone silhouette.
  • Chinese frames are long torso, short legs but stick in terms of silhouete. The newer generation is getting taller but shoe size is still small.
  • Western Frame is short torso and long legs. Feet are big and wide. For fat Caucasians, they ahve a diamond silhouette. (Man! They can reach up to 5xl! Pinoy market for bigs tops 3xl and not more. Poverty affects the country's biggie size. hehehe)
So, some of my designs and finish samples have been rejected. Yup, the green ITY dresses have been pulled out. The black one in sampling is with me at home. The shirts have to be modified because big people have this "turkey ham" arms that need to be covered. Sleeves have been added. The only no problem is the skirts. I love the skirt! The line for Big Closet is changing because of the new materials we are using. It is also changing because some of my outrageous experiements that drives the sample maker crazy. hehehe.
Experimentation is the key to Evolution.
Learn it from Mother Nature!

Thursday, June 16

A Brand New Sound

There's a brand new sound that's growing round the world...

It's deep in the heart of every boy and girl...

But it's not so new, it's primitive and tribal. If you look you find it in Gideon's Bible

Playing in NYC is the newest, hippest musical:

The Altarboyz
5 cute boys trying to make it int he world like N'SYNC and Backstreet. The only thing is, they sing religious songs. But you'll love it! It's so funny and touching. Its a brand new way of listening to Godly music.
Listen to it. Go search in Yahoo or see the website. THey have free previews. and see for yourself. I love the music.

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